Flirting 101

Today, I exclaimed to my mom about how I cannot flirt to save my life. Literally, even if there was a gun to my head, I would not be able to flirt with anyone. I just cannot imagine batting my eyelashes and twirling a lock of my hair. I'm one of those people who goes red in the face and starts talking absolute bullsh*t when I like someone. I cannot flirt. It is physically impossible. Like a lot of conversations with my mom which start out innocently enough, this one turned into a monologue about how I can improve myself. My mom says that the reason for my ineptness at flirting is because I'm never myself around the opposite sex. She says and I quote, I'm in a constant state of hyperactivity around boys which turns them off. I don't ever relax and show them the "real me". I can't even fathom how lame I am that I'm actually taking flirting tips from mother dearest. Anyway, she continued by saying that I let out this force of negative energy around most people, which also isn't very attractive. Because who really wants more negativity in their lives? I must clarify, I'm not a bundle of negativity all the time. In college, I'm a ray of sunshine (which my mom says, is the reason I have so many friends). With most people, I close myself off, putting up an invisible wall because I'm afraid they won't like me for me. I start to pretend to be someone else and it all becomes a vicious circle. I'm afraid they will mock me for being a nerd and a dork and I cease to be comfortable in my own skin. My mom says that there's only one rule in flirting- be authentic. Any fool can spot a phoney from a mile away. So let's see, I'll give my flirting skills a shot the next time I spot a cute guy. And who knows, maybe he will be unable to resist my goofy charms!

Faith

Sometimes I wonder what is more important-faith or love? By faith, I dont mean faith in God. I mean faith in a person. It's easy to love someone but have no faith in them. But if you don't love someone, you can never have faith in them. Faith, to me, is an irrevocable belief that you can do it. No matter what anyone says. I have faith in a lot of things. I have faith in my mother, in my sister. I have faith that somewhere out there, my soul mate is waiting for me. I have faith that I will find my way. I have faith that everyone has good in them. I have faith in the idea of faith. Having someone have faith in you is frightening and exhilarating. You don't want to let them down, but it somehow propels you to work harder. When someone doesn't have faith in you, or you don't have faith in yourself, what's going to push you to succeed? I think faith is even more important than love. Because you rarely choose whom you love. But you can choose to have faith in that person. Faith is something that you have to earn. You can love your dog with all your heart, but you needn't have faith that it's not going to eat up the trash when you're not looking.
I'm still working on having faith in myself. Its not as easy as it looks. It's only when I believe that I can do it that others can take a leap of faith when it comes to me.